A big part of my journey has been about learning how to heal the fear that was holding me back from finding and using my voice. The fear that made me feel like I couldn’t put myself out there. The fear that made me shrink from wanting to be seen or heard.
Just a few years ago I was consumed by negative thoughts and engaged in an endless spiral of gossip with my co-workers and friends. I lived on a diet of reality TV and packaged food. Instead of feeling my feelings—both good and bad—I dwelled in numbness.
I couldn’t bear to sit in silence or be alone with my own thoughts, much less even consider something like meditating!
I was comfortable in my discomfort because it felt normal to me, I didn’t know how to feel another way (or if that was even possible).
And then something happened that changed everything. Check out the story below or watch the video! Some part of me didn't think I could do it justice with the written word so I talked it out too.
I was feeling stressed, uncomfortable in my own skin, anxious, disconnected and more than a little lost, but I couldn’t put my finger on where it was coming from.
You wouldn’t have been able to tell all this just by looking at me of course because I’d gotten pretty good at putting on a happy face, but deep down I knew something was, well, off.
And as I sat in the front row of the theater listening to Gabby speaking on the stage I was struck by how comfortable and happy and confident she seemed and then she said something I’ll never forget, “Does anyone feel like they’re in a pressure cooker?”
Before I knew what was happening my hand shot straight up and I was relieved to see nearly everyone in that room had also raised their hand, to know I wasn’t alone.
Next, she led the audience in a meditation and asked us to think about what our greatest fear was, and mine, to my surprise, was simply “being great.”
I couldn’t explain why at the time, but that is what popped into my mind when she asked the question, which was followed very quickly by me thinking how sad it was that I was fearful of that. And that not only was I fearful of being great, I was basically afraid of even being “good enough.”
Good enough for what I didn’t know, but I couldn’t deny what she’d had to say had struck a chord with me, even though something about her message also made me...nervous?
And excited, and intrigued, and uncertain.
Uncertain about what I'd find if I dug deeper into my psyche, and uncertain if I even wanted to know. But deep down I knew that a door had been opened and I had the choice to step through it or stay stuck.
You see, up until that day I'd always liked the sound of being "spiritual," although I have to admit that the word didn’t actually hold much of a deep personal meaning for me.
But after seeing Gabby speak live once and meeting her I went home and signed up for a training she was doing called the Spirit Junkie Masterclass.
I'd never been to anything like that in my life, and was doing PR for a fashion magazine at the time so it made no sense logically, but I just felt a strong knowing that I was supposed to go. I knew I had to say yes.
But I was also full of self-doubt.
So, I kept trying to talk myself out of it; telling myself I should cancel because it was too expensive, too outside my comfort zone, too "spiritual" for someone like me.
But three weeks later I showed up to the Spirit Junkie Masterclass knowing no one and still having no idea what I was doing there.
And three days later I felt like I'd experienced more emotional breakthroughs in one weekend than I had in 20 plus years of off and on again therapy.
I was in shock at how much I had been pushing down my feelings and how much I craved this new way of being. I felt raw and exposed and vulnerable, and I kind-of liked it.
I realized I was, in fact, a Spirit Junkie.
During this time I was working at ELLE magazine heading up PR and editorial brand strategy, and loved it, but as I continued to dive further into my own healing (and learned how I could help others do the same) I felt more and more passionate about exploring something new as time went on.
So I spent the next two years studying extensively with Gabby and immersed myself in doing other trainings, going to workshops and studying the spiritual and mindfulness principles that resonated so deeply with me. And I incorporated all of thatinto how I showed up for my job by embodying all I was learning and sharing it with the people around me.
And then in late 2016 I felt like I was ready to take a leap and left my full-time job at ELLE to bring all my skills and passions together to do a number of different things including writing, life coaching, and media training & public speaking coaching with a mindful twist.
Long story short—I now have the confidence to use my voice, speak my truth, share my light and help others do the same and I’m so grateful that my own transformation led me to a place where I get to coach other people who are ready and willing to experience their own. And my Spirit Junkie Masterclass experience really started it all.
If you’re interested in checking out Spirit Junkie Masterclass for yourself I encourage you to see what it’s all about here!
Enrollment only opens up once a year and when you enroll through this link by June 21st at 6pm ET you'll also get three one-on-one coaching sessions with me so I can support you while you go through the course. Plus, Gabby is offering a MAJOR bonus bundle for you *in addition to* the bonus I’m offering. Check out all the details of our $4,250 in bonuses here!
And as always feel free to email me with any questions!